Friday, November 05, 2004
i cannot believe it has been a year since we admitted that we love each other once again after a lot of pain and miscommunications, i wanted to be there beside you and hug you and tell you how happy iam to finally admit to you and admit to myself that i truly love you.
i remember that day, i had sleepless nights before that day and then i texted you and asked you if you meant what you said and meant well this time.
do u remember the first time you said u loved me? i was watching a movie then with my family and u texted me, "mahal kita"......i did not know what to say or react and i even texted you back that maybe you are just saying that...i was happy that you were telling that but i am afraid that maybe you're just saying that.
after that text and after u told me on the phone that you really loved me, i was really happy but at the same time, iam skeptical of things and of how u really feel.
but i wanted to say that i dearly love u too....only iam afraid that we wont be able to pull through...i mean with the distance and with all the things that we have been through, i dunno. i was so afraid the time you kinda drifted away on my life for months...you left and did not say why....
and august of last year...you called me up, after months of not texting, emailing, calling you suddenly resurfaced...i was a bit unsure if i should really talk to you but iam glad that i was hearing you from far end...but this time i was not expecting anything....
and then you said you loved me...2 months after....
i hope you know the joy you bring in my life.although you could not see the smile whenever you text me, or call me, i hope you noticed that iam thankful that you finally said you love me after 2 years of being friends....
i know ours is not a perfect relationship, and sometimes, its not pretty understood....but iam sure that whatever we have...and we are having, is true and it's one of the graetest things happening in my life.
ofcourse, this is just a letter...but i wanted you to know that november 5 of 2003, is a date i will not ever forget because i finally admitted that i do love you too.....
the distance is one of those problems but no matter, what....i just want you to know that been great being your friend, and your girlfriend, your love of your life.
i hope to see you soon, and just hug you and really thank you for being there during those days i needed you the most.
thank you for the great year we had....
thank you for bringing me one of the sweetest things....
you....
i love you sweety
& our love goes round and round;
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